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Thursday, January 3, 2008

Indecision is Horrible

Okay so sometimes it's easy to forget about someone. Someone that didn't have that big of an impact in your life. What if it's someone that did? Someone that changed you so much, and you fell in love with. I never thought it would be that hard to let someone go. If it is that hard, then should you actually let them go? I've tried many times to find someone better to replace them, but I never found one person. Until now. I am completely stuck between two guys. One live so far away that I'll never see him, but I love him. He is often busy, and we told eachother to date other people. The other guy is right here, living two blocks away from me. He is crazy about me, and I definatlty like him. Can i give away love that I can never see, and take someone I like, that I know has a slim chance of working out? Or should I keep this love I've had for so long, and enjoy it, but give up the chance of having someone who is always there for me, and lives so close? I am truly STUCK between these two guys.

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Just Some Creativity

how can you not get creative?
its an art.
its an emotion that you can't let pass.
it's a feeling that lets you think you can do anything.
I mean think about it
all you have to dois get inspired by one thing
And then you just keep going.

listen to a song
read a poem
look at a picture.
creativity can be poured out in all directions
even all at once
Sometimes its like blur

all in my mind
ideas that I can picture reality
its something you just cant help
something you want to express
let it go
let the feeling go
to all the artsy people.
this is to you.


Have you ever waited for a song to start
but you just get impatient
what if it’s a song you LOVE
How can you help but get impatient

you just want to hear the first note
almost like you mind is the speaker

have you ever turned on a song
and just found that it starts out loud and annoying
but turns into something beautiful
like something that gets stuck in your head all daybut to listen to the amazing part
you have to get passed the loud part

what about when you expect somethingbut its not what you expected
like a soft song to calm you down when you mad
but it turns out being this loud punk song
that turns out to calm you down better than a soft song could ever do